I know I know its been a WHILE! Ive been busy with work and summer classes. I did finish my summer classes with a decent barely passing grade... <(^=^)> proud of my self! (falls going to start and I need to Budget to bit to afford it)
and just incase you were curious I will still be a freshman after da summer.. but Im gonna call my self a sophomore anyways
sophomore swag bitches
Btw: I finally finished the l word.. reaction rant coming soon
Also ill be blogging more after fall begins.. letcha know.
My room is a hot ass mess! seriously! Most college (women) dorm rooms look like this....
Mine looks like this...
no joke..
No but seriously I have to move all my shit out in like 5 days and I work for 3 of these days... so yea Im really fuckin occupied but on the bright side I don't have to worry about construction in my new dorm *knocking on wood*
Speaking of I haven't even told you guys about my JOB... It doesn't matter because I will be resigning (GTF-OUT) SOONBut my job is a shit storm of frustration. But ill save that story for another day....
Single Life
just incase anyones wondering Im still single - no gf, no bf, just me alones....
That's ok honestly I don't mind being single but sometimes I see couples and I envy them so much! More or less I look for friendship more then partnership but still.
Sometimes I wanna hold a hand
Kiss a cheek
Or be held by someone who loves me dearly at night.
I was kinda hoping it would be that girl... I was talking bout but... I don't think she feels the same bout me. mY ROOMIE TOLD ME SHE DOESNT THINK THE GIRL IS EVEN A LESBIAN. *bitches be hatin* but she made me think...
I watched a scene in after sex with Mila and some black chick and I realized .... love is ..
a stupid bitch that makes you sell your soul and then gives you a fuckin t-shirt
Im gonna go now and finish packing my ramen noodles and cereal, study a lil and then maybe think about buying some shoes... (*college kid problems*)
Woman are beautiful lovely wonderful creatures that I adore and seeing them in porn I don't tend to mind..
Porn to me is a form of sensual art that I never mind viewing every now and then. Im not obsessed or addicted I just find it entertaining, fascinating and sexual (I cant deny seeing it every now and then Like a good movie).
But sometimes I run into porn that makes me violently upset and/or want to vomit. Porn were women(even men) humiliate and in some cases mutilate themselves for money or attention and it makes me want to cry to be honest. Sometimes I wonder if us humans forget that others are humans too...
Im not anti-porn by any means I love the ideas of expressing sexuality and exploring it but.. when 7 men r beating and f***ng you, your organs begin to fall out, you have mental breakdown and crying on the scene or your BLEEDING (non virgin bleeding) then that means somethings really wrong.
By no means would a women or man be enjoying this, If they are I cant judge but - I believe that they're victims obviously suffering from extreme self hatred to allow this pain to be inflicted on them (in non s& m cases).
I hate REGULATION! Hate it but Porns constantly pushing my boundaries, there Is RAPE PORN, Guys, real RAPE PORN! DA FUCK, bestiality, and mutilation and a lot of these women also seem underage. Im scared of it, When Im watching it and Im LITERALY scared for the women (or men) TO THE POINT I HAVE TO LEAVE THE FILM there Is a problem.
It takes a lot to disturd me but I think someones organ getting destroyed for life is wat bothers the fuck out of me the most or literly banging mentally disabled men and women who obviously suffer from PTSD....
*so what does someone have to be doing to consider porn to be crossing the line enough to do something about it?
like I don't mind if it hentai shit because its animated theres no one actually physically getting hurt... CROSS all da boundaries- I don't care- that's what arts for.
Lets just remember where all humans, not objects. Mothers, Fathers, Daughters, Sons, Sisters and Brothers and we must share some shed of respect amongst each other.
IM SORRY! T-T, Ive been avoiding my blog due to stupid reasons and I didn't follow threw with my 30 day rule.
I will try again.
pwetty pwease forgive me..
soooooo... I met this beautiful girl recently. I adore her! Shes smart, beautiful, weird, and exotic. I cant stop thinking about her and the things I wanna... :p let not finish dat sentence. Let me say dis Girl got me goin crazy. IVE NEVER FELT THIS WAY EVER about a girl.
Well except B. steady (^-^)
I met her a bit ago... I had always seen her and admired her style from afar but one day she had came behind me to help me carry something, she just looked at me and said "Need help sweetheart" GOD HER VOICE! We talked for a min. and then I left but then I had seen her again the next day...
I wanted to say hi.. in a seductive way and shit... but I panicked and avoided her
But then I had saw her again and concluded this shit is FATE! So I swallowed my scared self grabbed my sis and went to say hi
... after my roommate abandoned me obviously seeing my awkwad feeling towards her. It was just me and the girl.
She was sitting all gracefully smoking her cigarette. She noticed how nervous I was and said It was ok. I was so relieved. She basically just talked and I listened, one would think we were just to really awkward ass people but I don't know I just connected with her mentally so well...
Her friends eventually came and took her attention away from me, I got uncomfortable again and left. I adored her and I could've stayed but I just couldn't . I guess I was a bit tramatized by pass friendships {I don't do groups]. So I left.
Feeling very odd.... I don't quite understand her or what she wants or feels toward me but honestly I couldn't care. I just care for her so much...
Im a tad bit scared of my feelings towards her, they happened so fast. It feels like I might just be crazy and attach to easy. But I just like her so much. I cant be her friend because I adore her more then that and I cant be her girlfriend because, I just cant be with anyone right now. And shes just way to social for me I wouldn't know how to handle myself with her around so many people
So basically Im just not gonna talk to her ^-^. Itll cause to much drama. *heh* I just admire her from afar again. But I do know one thing.. If she does like me like I like her she has to come get me or let me know because...... Im scared shitless right now. Sorry babe.
Hey babes how was the weekend?... Oh me! I went on a 'date?=(dinner with sushi)' with s guy who looks like this..
I know, I know ... Im suppose to be dedicated to women but GOSH Bob Marley's are my weakness...*heh heh*
It was FUn we went for sushi. We fed it to each other all cute and stuff but.... I don't know. It didn't feel rite. Something felt uncomfortable and odd but It might be because I HATE socializing or... I don't know. I saw how much he was enjoying himself and we got along so well but for my first date?.....also I did just get off of work so I was tired... but for my first date?
This week went by soo fast. I feel as tho I wasted my whole spring break doing absolutely nothing..which I did I geuss.
the average spring breaker...
me on spring break
Soo basically I spent my week doing nothing but watch my youth drain down the sink...
You: But y tune?
Because my Mum hates me and wanted me to stay on campus instead of going home to do nothing.... --_-- yay.
Yesterday was one of the worst days of my life. My room was shitty, I had cried myself to sleep due to depression, my room stinked and I looked a hot mess. And at 11:00am, I get 12 annoying ass construction workers BOMBARD INTO MY ROOM.
I was in my bed! I turned around and I got up and was like..
DA FUCK!?
I Told them "GET DA FUCK OUT MY DORM!" nicely of course :)
and my RA was lyk "srry they have to come in..."
....................0_0........
After dealing with this in my dorm room for 30 minutes! WITH MY BRA'S N STUFF ON DA FLOOR!
I learned to always go home on spring break and...
Okay so its sexy Thursday and basically still no viewers......... (T-T)0
But that okay this blog was more or less for me *-U-*
............So basically I was on youtube and I found the most beautiful, talented women in the world who I will showcase for this Sexy Day!
B.Steady a.k.a *my future wifey* maybe
I discovered her one day...On YOUTUBE to be specific on the funniest youtube channel 'Hartbeat' and 'Quierd<---check her out!
She was singing with Hartbeat and they were covering the song 'only wanna give it to you' I heard and Fell and love with it! This intellectual, beautiful, black women. Drove me up the wall... Like 6 months ago and Im still in love with her.
Ever wondered what it would be like if you actually met your idol?.....0_o *ID PRBLY CRY?!
so check out this sexy song and fall in love with her too!
this looks so cute....but also a bit uncomfortable and also it leaves you asking, why are they on the ground? Why r they squatting? da fucks. going on.. o_0
I am sexually-orientatedly flustered!
You: Whats wrong with you bitch..?
I WANT TO BE A LESBIAN
You: Why bitch?
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I am bi-sexual. Meaning I am sexually attracted to both men and women! For those who may say... bi-sexuality isn't real. Well, You are entitled to your opinion but Ive been this way since elementary and I believe in it PASSIONATLY and its not changing now.... :P
So since Ive started my University Ive seen women who look like this..
Shanes of da WORLD ((((*W*)
And if you didn't know... this THIS! is what im attracted to in women. well... not just shanes lol. But I like tomboys and stems which my school has a lot of. =Which makes my pussy cry Every time I go outside!=
what.. its true lol. ...tmi 4 ya o(TUT))o
--- nOW I want to be a full on lesbian so bad! I even changed my sexual status to bisexual ---> bisexual leaning towards woman. I just prefer WOMEN. so why am I not a lesbian! Why was I born bi-sexual! If there are anyother bi-beauties out there you must understand the struggle of wanting to just like one sex. It just feels so complex living this way. This lifestyle.
I hear most lesbians when first discovering there sexuality identified as Bi before identifying as a lesbian.... which I kinda hopes I do.... but I just have to like guys...in a sexual way...
(-_-) Iz blame you for making the man and women teams a tie! I hatez that I luv You