I know I know its been a WHILE! Ive been busy with work and summer classes. I did finish my summer classes with a decent barely passing grade... <(^=^)> proud of my self! (falls going to start and I need to Budget to bit to afford it)
and just incase you were curious I will still be a freshman after da summer.. but Im gonna call my self a sophomore anyways
sophomore swag bitches
Btw: I finally finished the l word.. reaction rant coming soon
Also ill be blogging more after fall begins.. letcha know.
My room is a hot ass mess! seriously! Most college (women) dorm rooms look like this....
Mine looks like this...
no joke..
No but seriously I have to move all my shit out in like 5 days and I work for 3 of these days... so yea Im really fuckin occupied but on the bright side I don't have to worry about construction in my new dorm *knocking on wood*
Speaking of I haven't even told you guys about my JOB... It doesn't matter because I will be resigning (GTF-OUT) SOONBut my job is a shit storm of frustration. But ill save that story for another day....
Single Life
just incase anyones wondering Im still single - no gf, no bf, just me alones....
That's ok honestly I don't mind being single but sometimes I see couples and I envy them so much! More or less I look for friendship more then partnership but still.
Sometimes I wanna hold a hand
Kiss a cheek
Or be held by someone who loves me dearly at night.
I was kinda hoping it would be that girl... I was talking bout but... I don't think she feels the same bout me. mY ROOMIE TOLD ME SHE DOESNT THINK THE GIRL IS EVEN A LESBIAN. *bitches be hatin* but she made me think...
I watched a scene in after sex with Mila and some black chick and I realized .... love is ..
a stupid bitch that makes you sell your soul and then gives you a fuckin t-shirt
Im gonna go now and finish packing my ramen noodles and cereal, study a lil and then maybe think about buying some shoes... (*college kid problems*)
Woman are beautiful lovely wonderful creatures that I adore and seeing them in porn I don't tend to mind..
Porn to me is a form of sensual art that I never mind viewing every now and then. Im not obsessed or addicted I just find it entertaining, fascinating and sexual (I cant deny seeing it every now and then Like a good movie).
But sometimes I run into porn that makes me violently upset and/or want to vomit. Porn were women(even men) humiliate and in some cases mutilate themselves for money or attention and it makes me want to cry to be honest. Sometimes I wonder if us humans forget that others are humans too...
Im not anti-porn by any means I love the ideas of expressing sexuality and exploring it but.. when 7 men r beating and f***ng you, your organs begin to fall out, you have mental breakdown and crying on the scene or your BLEEDING (non virgin bleeding) then that means somethings really wrong.
By no means would a women or man be enjoying this, If they are I cant judge but - I believe that they're victims obviously suffering from extreme self hatred to allow this pain to be inflicted on them (in non s& m cases).
I hate REGULATION! Hate it but Porns constantly pushing my boundaries, there Is RAPE PORN, Guys, real RAPE PORN! DA FUCK, bestiality, and mutilation and a lot of these women also seem underage. Im scared of it, When Im watching it and Im LITERALY scared for the women (or men) TO THE POINT I HAVE TO LEAVE THE FILM there Is a problem.
It takes a lot to disturd me but I think someones organ getting destroyed for life is wat bothers the fuck out of me the most or literly banging mentally disabled men and women who obviously suffer from PTSD....
*so what does someone have to be doing to consider porn to be crossing the line enough to do something about it?
like I don't mind if it hentai shit because its animated theres no one actually physically getting hurt... CROSS all da boundaries- I don't care- that's what arts for.
Lets just remember where all humans, not objects. Mothers, Fathers, Daughters, Sons, Sisters and Brothers and we must share some shed of respect amongst each other.
This week went by soo fast. I feel as tho I wasted my whole spring break doing absolutely nothing..which I did I geuss.
the average spring breaker...
me on spring break
Soo basically I spent my week doing nothing but watch my youth drain down the sink...
You: But y tune?
Because my Mum hates me and wanted me to stay on campus instead of going home to do nothing.... --_-- yay.
Yesterday was one of the worst days of my life. My room was shitty, I had cried myself to sleep due to depression, my room stinked and I looked a hot mess. And at 11:00am, I get 12 annoying ass construction workers BOMBARD INTO MY ROOM.
I was in my bed! I turned around and I got up and was like..
DA FUCK!?
I Told them "GET DA FUCK OUT MY DORM!" nicely of course :)
and my RA was lyk "srry they have to come in..."
....................0_0........
After dealing with this in my dorm room for 30 minutes! WITH MY BRA'S N STUFF ON DA FLOOR!
I learned to always go home on spring break and...
Okay so its sexy Thursday and basically still no viewers......... (T-T)0
But that okay this blog was more or less for me *-U-*
............So basically I was on youtube and I found the most beautiful, talented women in the world who I will showcase for this Sexy Day!
B.Steady a.k.a *my future wifey* maybe
I discovered her one day...On YOUTUBE to be specific on the funniest youtube channel 'Hartbeat' and 'Quierd<---check her out!
She was singing with Hartbeat and they were covering the song 'only wanna give it to you' I heard and Fell and love with it! This intellectual, beautiful, black women. Drove me up the wall... Like 6 months ago and Im still in love with her.
Ever wondered what it would be like if you actually met your idol?.....0_o *ID PRBLY CRY?!
so check out this sexy song and fall in love with her too!
Now im a loving human being and I accept all styles but I damn there reject the emo.. heres why...
What is an Emo?
Emo is a style/ sometimes life style based off of emotions and emotional people. Usually done in pre-teen-teen years to fit in with others.
Whats the style?
Theres no actual set style to be an emo. But the most widely know is the colorful hair, eyeliner and dark clothes.
Why don't you like it?
Because I don't like this.......
I HATE THIS. I DISPISE THIS! this is a widely known stereotype related to emos.. with many other things.
Some emos are known to hide there problem by inflicting physical pain upon themselves and I appall that. Now im not judging because in my life I was once so severely depressed I tried to cut my self and eventually talked my self out of it...
And I know everyone isnt alike but what ever sicko who developed a clique or style where this behavior can be over looked frustrates the hell out of me. Instead of saying hey im an emotionally distressed teen or adult one can just say 'Im just emo' It de-sensitizes a extreme problem amongst young people. Its not the style but its were it comes from, Its forcing people into groups or cliques to avoid the real problem. I think this style/clique was created to separate emotional mentally unstable people away from others because as long as we don't see them there not there and I don't like that.
Now the look...
The emo look is ummmmm ccccuuuuuttte..e...e :/
Diy Your self EMO! (I didn't write this diy, don't judge me im lazy)
DISCLAIMER: I Tune am not a horrible person. I love everyone and I admire the emo style but I cant support separating individuals based on the emotional state in life. So im ok with the fashion, music, personalities. But im not okay with were it comes from and the people who are trapped in it. Being human we must all love and accept each other not hide in a clique or closet to run away from who you are or your feelings. And this clique is an excuse for a lot of people accepting unacceptable harmful behavior.
if by any chance you are in a bad place in life I just wanna say 'I love you' and please don't hide from society, emotions are hard and hard to deal with but you are very strong and wonderful and you can make it through and become successful and with me and other we can win this hard game of life..
this looks so cute....but also a bit uncomfortable and also it leaves you asking, why are they on the ground? Why r they squatting? da fucks. going on.. o_0
I am sexually-orientatedly flustered!
You: Whats wrong with you bitch..?
I WANT TO BE A LESBIAN
You: Why bitch?
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I am bi-sexual. Meaning I am sexually attracted to both men and women! For those who may say... bi-sexuality isn't real. Well, You are entitled to your opinion but Ive been this way since elementary and I believe in it PASSIONATLY and its not changing now.... :P
So since Ive started my University Ive seen women who look like this..
Shanes of da WORLD ((((*W*)
And if you didn't know... this THIS! is what im attracted to in women. well... not just shanes lol. But I like tomboys and stems which my school has a lot of. =Which makes my pussy cry Every time I go outside!=
what.. its true lol. ...tmi 4 ya o(TUT))o
--- nOW I want to be a full on lesbian so bad! I even changed my sexual status to bisexual ---> bisexual leaning towards woman. I just prefer WOMEN. so why am I not a lesbian! Why was I born bi-sexual! If there are anyother bi-beauties out there you must understand the struggle of wanting to just like one sex. It just feels so complex living this way. This lifestyle.
I hear most lesbians when first discovering there sexuality identified as Bi before identifying as a lesbian.... which I kinda hopes I do.... but I just have to like guys...in a sexual way...
(-_-) Iz blame you for making the man and women teams a tie! I hatez that I luv You