I know I know its been a WHILE! Ive been busy with work and summer classes. I did finish my summer classes with a decent barely passing grade... <(^=^)> proud of my self! (falls going to start and I need to Budget to bit to afford it)
and just incase you were curious I will still be a freshman after da summer.. but Im gonna call my self a sophomore anyways
sophomore swag bitches
Btw: I finally finished the l word.. reaction rant coming soon
Also ill be blogging more after fall begins.. letcha know.
My room is a hot ass mess! seriously! Most college (women) dorm rooms look like this....
Mine looks like this...
no joke..
No but seriously I have to move all my shit out in like 5 days and I work for 3 of these days... so yea Im really fuckin occupied but on the bright side I don't have to worry about construction in my new dorm *knocking on wood*
Speaking of I haven't even told you guys about my JOB... It doesn't matter because I will be resigning (GTF-OUT) SOONBut my job is a shit storm of frustration. But ill save that story for another day....
Single Life
just incase anyones wondering Im still single - no gf, no bf, just me alones....
That's ok honestly I don't mind being single but sometimes I see couples and I envy them so much! More or less I look for friendship more then partnership but still.
Sometimes I wanna hold a hand
Kiss a cheek
Or be held by someone who loves me dearly at night.
I was kinda hoping it would be that girl... I was talking bout but... I don't think she feels the same bout me. mY ROOMIE TOLD ME SHE DOESNT THINK THE GIRL IS EVEN A LESBIAN. *bitches be hatin* but she made me think...
I watched a scene in after sex with Mila and some black chick and I realized .... love is ..
a stupid bitch that makes you sell your soul and then gives you a fuckin t-shirt
Im gonna go now and finish packing my ramen noodles and cereal, study a lil and then maybe think about buying some shoes... (*college kid problems*)
Woman are beautiful lovely wonderful creatures that I adore and seeing them in porn I don't tend to mind..
Porn to me is a form of sensual art that I never mind viewing every now and then. Im not obsessed or addicted I just find it entertaining, fascinating and sexual (I cant deny seeing it every now and then Like a good movie).
But sometimes I run into porn that makes me violently upset and/or want to vomit. Porn were women(even men) humiliate and in some cases mutilate themselves for money or attention and it makes me want to cry to be honest. Sometimes I wonder if us humans forget that others are humans too...
Im not anti-porn by any means I love the ideas of expressing sexuality and exploring it but.. when 7 men r beating and f***ng you, your organs begin to fall out, you have mental breakdown and crying on the scene or your BLEEDING (non virgin bleeding) then that means somethings really wrong.
By no means would a women or man be enjoying this, If they are I cant judge but - I believe that they're victims obviously suffering from extreme self hatred to allow this pain to be inflicted on them (in non s& m cases).
I hate REGULATION! Hate it but Porns constantly pushing my boundaries, there Is RAPE PORN, Guys, real RAPE PORN! DA FUCK, bestiality, and mutilation and a lot of these women also seem underage. Im scared of it, When Im watching it and Im LITERALY scared for the women (or men) TO THE POINT I HAVE TO LEAVE THE FILM there Is a problem.
It takes a lot to disturd me but I think someones organ getting destroyed for life is wat bothers the fuck out of me the most or literly banging mentally disabled men and women who obviously suffer from PTSD....
*so what does someone have to be doing to consider porn to be crossing the line enough to do something about it?
like I don't mind if it hentai shit because its animated theres no one actually physically getting hurt... CROSS all da boundaries- I don't care- that's what arts for.
Lets just remember where all humans, not objects. Mothers, Fathers, Daughters, Sons, Sisters and Brothers and we must share some shed of respect amongst each other.
IM SORRY! T-T, Ive been avoiding my blog due to stupid reasons and I didn't follow threw with my 30 day rule.
I will try again.
pwetty pwease forgive me..
soooooo... I met this beautiful girl recently. I adore her! Shes smart, beautiful, weird, and exotic. I cant stop thinking about her and the things I wanna... :p let not finish dat sentence. Let me say dis Girl got me goin crazy. IVE NEVER FELT THIS WAY EVER about a girl.
Well except B. steady (^-^)
I met her a bit ago... I had always seen her and admired her style from afar but one day she had came behind me to help me carry something, she just looked at me and said "Need help sweetheart" GOD HER VOICE! We talked for a min. and then I left but then I had seen her again the next day...
I wanted to say hi.. in a seductive way and shit... but I panicked and avoided her
But then I had saw her again and concluded this shit is FATE! So I swallowed my scared self grabbed my sis and went to say hi
... after my roommate abandoned me obviously seeing my awkwad feeling towards her. It was just me and the girl.
She was sitting all gracefully smoking her cigarette. She noticed how nervous I was and said It was ok. I was so relieved. She basically just talked and I listened, one would think we were just to really awkward ass people but I don't know I just connected with her mentally so well...
Her friends eventually came and took her attention away from me, I got uncomfortable again and left. I adored her and I could've stayed but I just couldn't . I guess I was a bit tramatized by pass friendships {I don't do groups]. So I left.
Feeling very odd.... I don't quite understand her or what she wants or feels toward me but honestly I couldn't care. I just care for her so much...
Im a tad bit scared of my feelings towards her, they happened so fast. It feels like I might just be crazy and attach to easy. But I just like her so much. I cant be her friend because I adore her more then that and I cant be her girlfriend because, I just cant be with anyone right now. And shes just way to social for me I wouldn't know how to handle myself with her around so many people
So basically Im just not gonna talk to her ^-^. Itll cause to much drama. *heh* I just admire her from afar again. But I do know one thing.. If she does like me like I like her she has to come get me or let me know because...... Im scared shitless right now. Sorry babe.
Yes I am open to doing give aways lol. which is what I will do on Fridays when I develop a fan base.. but for now
My fun Fridays will be on random fun shit!
LIKE
So if your watching it like me then you would have been watching the second half of this season, if your some guy living under a rock then your gonna need to stop. go to Netflix or on demand. search 'The walking dead. Then click on it. watch every episode. and... Your welcome.
So anywho...
This second half of season three has been incredibly fuckin slow pace. I know I know
-Well Tune.. its probably just to calm the audience after the chaotic shit in the first half of the season..
FUCKIN BLASPHAMY. We watch this show for the fuckin chaos not to watch Darrel and Becca bond together and sing fucking songs and make beautiful heartfelt moment. Which was amazing but..... it lasted to fuckin long. I didn't need to go through that shit for a whole hour and half if you include the other episode. (also what happened to her... who kidnapped her and poor.Fuckin.dARREL.! he has the worse fuckin luck. His brother dies 2x, he loses his mother/gf/thing, and his daughter/gf/thing gets kidnapped his life sucks so bad.
Michonne WHY are you losing your mind? what wrong with you are you selusional, scizo, umm pycho, or do you have PTSD. either or please have sex with Rick PLEASE. Ive been wanting that for ever now.
I know it creepy 0_o but c'mon you were thinkin it to rite? rite?
Speaking of Rick... Rick I know your tired, its the apacolypse you think u lost your baby but please take off your shoe and throw it at that ingrateful sun of a bitch you call your SON! Hes fuckin psycho. and hes a whiney dick.he wanted to fuckin kill you and never ever listens. YOUR SON IS GOING TO GET YOU KILLED. at least smack him like the incredibles... lol
pull some edna mode shit on him lol
Glen and Maggie are cute but Im starting to think there relationship is getting unhealthy exspecially Maggie she goin fuckin psycho w/o her man. Cutting up zombies leavin a bloody ass trail Calm da fuck down girl. You will find him and what if you don't.... I think this bitch is near suicidal, homicidal bonkers with out her guy. He not as nuts rite now...yet
I wish they could speed up this plot already, it starting to feel painful and slightly predictable. There only two more episondes left and Im starting to get pissed. I waited 2 damn months for dis shit and Im getting pretty disappointed.
But its not all bad at least we have the Pychopath homicidal maniac child to keep us entertained. You know the one who tried to kill the baby.......