I know I know its been a WHILE! Ive been busy with work and summer classes. I did finish my summer classes with a decent barely passing grade... <(^=^)> proud of my self! (falls going to start and I need to Budget to bit to afford it)
and just incase you were curious I will still be a freshman after da summer.. but Im gonna call my self a sophomore anyways
sophomore swag bitches
Btw: I finally finished the l word.. reaction rant coming soon
Also ill be blogging more after fall begins.. letcha know.
My room is a hot ass mess! seriously! Most college (women) dorm rooms look like this....
Mine looks like this...
no joke..
No but seriously I have to move all my shit out in like 5 days and I work for 3 of these days... so yea Im really fuckin occupied but on the bright side I don't have to worry about construction in my new dorm *knocking on wood*
Speaking of I haven't even told you guys about my JOB... It doesn't matter because I will be resigning (GTF-OUT) SOONBut my job is a shit storm of frustration. But ill save that story for another day....
Single Life
just incase anyones wondering Im still single - no gf, no bf, just me alones....
That's ok honestly I don't mind being single but sometimes I see couples and I envy them so much! More or less I look for friendship more then partnership but still.
Sometimes I wanna hold a hand
Kiss a cheek
Or be held by someone who loves me dearly at night.
I was kinda hoping it would be that girl... I was talking bout but... I don't think she feels the same bout me. mY ROOMIE TOLD ME SHE DOESNT THINK THE GIRL IS EVEN A LESBIAN. *bitches be hatin* but she made me think...
I watched a scene in after sex with Mila and some black chick and I realized .... love is ..
a stupid bitch that makes you sell your soul and then gives you a fuckin t-shirt
Im gonna go now and finish packing my ramen noodles and cereal, study a lil and then maybe think about buying some shoes... (*college kid problems*)
Woman are beautiful lovely wonderful creatures that I adore and seeing them in porn I don't tend to mind..
Porn to me is a form of sensual art that I never mind viewing every now and then. Im not obsessed or addicted I just find it entertaining, fascinating and sexual (I cant deny seeing it every now and then Like a good movie).
But sometimes I run into porn that makes me violently upset and/or want to vomit. Porn were women(even men) humiliate and in some cases mutilate themselves for money or attention and it makes me want to cry to be honest. Sometimes I wonder if us humans forget that others are humans too...
Im not anti-porn by any means I love the ideas of expressing sexuality and exploring it but.. when 7 men r beating and f***ng you, your organs begin to fall out, you have mental breakdown and crying on the scene or your BLEEDING (non virgin bleeding) then that means somethings really wrong.
By no means would a women or man be enjoying this, If they are I cant judge but - I believe that they're victims obviously suffering from extreme self hatred to allow this pain to be inflicted on them (in non s& m cases).
I hate REGULATION! Hate it but Porns constantly pushing my boundaries, there Is RAPE PORN, Guys, real RAPE PORN! DA FUCK, bestiality, and mutilation and a lot of these women also seem underage. Im scared of it, When Im watching it and Im LITERALY scared for the women (or men) TO THE POINT I HAVE TO LEAVE THE FILM there Is a problem.
It takes a lot to disturd me but I think someones organ getting destroyed for life is wat bothers the fuck out of me the most or literly banging mentally disabled men and women who obviously suffer from PTSD....
*so what does someone have to be doing to consider porn to be crossing the line enough to do something about it?
like I don't mind if it hentai shit because its animated theres no one actually physically getting hurt... CROSS all da boundaries- I don't care- that's what arts for.
Lets just remember where all humans, not objects. Mothers, Fathers, Daughters, Sons, Sisters and Brothers and we must share some shed of respect amongst each other.
Hey babes how was the weekend?... Oh me! I went on a 'date?=(dinner with sushi)' with s guy who looks like this..
I know, I know ... Im suppose to be dedicated to women but GOSH Bob Marley's are my weakness...*heh heh*
It was FUn we went for sushi. We fed it to each other all cute and stuff but.... I don't know. It didn't feel rite. Something felt uncomfortable and odd but It might be because I HATE socializing or... I don't know. I saw how much he was enjoying himself and we got along so well but for my first date?.....also I did just get off of work so I was tired... but for my first date?
This week went by soo fast. I feel as tho I wasted my whole spring break doing absolutely nothing..which I did I geuss.
the average spring breaker...
me on spring break
Soo basically I spent my week doing nothing but watch my youth drain down the sink...
You: But y tune?
Because my Mum hates me and wanted me to stay on campus instead of going home to do nothing.... --_-- yay.
Yesterday was one of the worst days of my life. My room was shitty, I had cried myself to sleep due to depression, my room stinked and I looked a hot mess. And at 11:00am, I get 12 annoying ass construction workers BOMBARD INTO MY ROOM.
I was in my bed! I turned around and I got up and was like..
DA FUCK!?
I Told them "GET DA FUCK OUT MY DORM!" nicely of course :)
and my RA was lyk "srry they have to come in..."
....................0_0........
After dealing with this in my dorm room for 30 minutes! WITH MY BRA'S N STUFF ON DA FLOOR!
I learned to always go home on spring break and...
this is why no one likes college. This shit rite here!
College/University/Trade school. These bitches are hard! no joke. And if you live in the U.S. we are pressured into going to college since we were like fuckin 3...really.
So not only people who shouldn't even be in college go to college now-a-days instead of military or trade school.
Now to make shit harder on top of there school debts lets force them to take a class no one fuckin understands.
Logistics.
This shit is fuckin alien/cpu-bat shit crazy language/math/eng class. The only way a human being could learn this is inless they're fuckin smart, REALLY smart or Bat shit crazy.
*random viewer raises hand* "I learned it..."
Well good for fuckin you. This is a class I had to take in my University and Im fuckin failing this shit guys. See I don't mix letters and math...its fuckn crazy and unnecessary.
Now I salute anyone who can do it. YOU! my bat-shit crazy genius BFF! you! Are magic!
But me noooooooooo. Im gonna try not to fail it- but Im suffering you guys.
Oh and if you don't know what logics is.. google it and your gonna see how bat-shit crazy this shit is.